Planting a Seed

It's spring, and I've been seeing pregnant women and babies everywhere!

One of my friend's is even pregnant with twins.

My "baby" has reached the age where he is a toddler - no longer a baby - and, although I am so excited that he is happy and healthy, that his vocabulary is increasing, and his curioucity is insatiable, part of me really misses having a little bundle to cuddle in my arms.

I never thought I'd want to go through pregnancy and labor again, and I like sleeping. I like sleeping a lot - but here I am, wanting another baby.

Of course, it's really not a good time.. no, not at all. Oliver just started a new job. Toby is still in diapers, he's kind of a handful during the day, and he has gone back to waking up in the middle of the night. I also need to lose 60 pounds to be able to safely gain the 30 you gain when you're pregnant. It would be nice to get thin enough to not look like I'm still pregnant before getting pregnant again. There are lots of reasons why it's not a good idea right now.

In addition to my ticking biological clock, I miss our dog - and I've been thinking, maybe we could get a small dog that our apartment complex would allow.

But it's so much calmer at our house without the dog, and cleaner - and we have light beige carpets now that I'm obsessed with keeping that way, and no yard. Yeah, it's not a good idea to have a baby, or a dog right now.

And then, just to tempt me even more, one of my new friends here, sent out an email saying that she found a really nice, friendly, litter-box-trained, cat that she just can't keep. And our whole family loves cats, but our whole family is also allergic to cats. So, that's not a good idea either.

And then I thought, maybe I could funnel this intense biological need I have to nurture, into nurturing a small garden out on our patio.

And then I thought,

"Nah, too much work."

It's spring, and I've been seeing pregnant women and babies everywhere. It has inspired me to knit baby booties -- and, it's all making me think...

Maybe a tomato plant would be nice.

Maybe a small, cherry tomato, plant to start.