I joined the club to meet people. I've met them, and feel just as lonely as before, and annoyed. Now I'm lonely and annoyed. I guess the problem wasn't really meeting people, the problem is still a problem, and that is, that I still haven't made any friends here. I like our neighborhood, but I don't like the people I've met in our neighborhood. The idea of moving anywhere else though, makes me physically ill.
My car was hit in the grocery store parking lot. Not sure which is more of a crime, the hit and run, or all the paperwork, phone calls, emails, and other crap I have to deal with now as a result. It's the kind of thing that makes me want to go run my car into something. (Just kidding.)
I'm reading a book about recovering from eating disorders, and the book is making me a little nuts. There are a couple of places in the text where the author equates veganism with an eating disorder - but the whole thing is a muddled mess. Horses are good therapy for recovering from an eating disorder. Equine culture values thinness and creates eating disorders. I'm not sure what she even thinks is healthy - and the whole thing is making my head spin. She's a recovering anorexic, and former vegetarian. She says eating meat was part of her healing. Well if you are starving, yes, eating anything, is better than nothing, but not eating meat is not an illness in itself. I've decided she's nuts and wants to make me nuts too.
I'm reading a self-help book that's making me nuts.
The hit-and-run clerical aftermath is also a crime.
The mom's group I joined for my social health, has made me want to retreat from society.
I'm trying to find the humor in some trying things.
Trying... and I'm having a bad day - I'm frustrated and lonely, I just want to go hide somewhere and cry - or bang my head against the wall - or write a really long blog post about a bunch of stupid things that are pissing me off today.
4 comments:
Hang in there. :( you will meet people it's just so hard when you're at home. Any other mom groups worth trying out there? Can you volunteer somewhere where you could bring Toby with??
Thanks Laurie.
Two major moves in two years have been tough. It takes time to build friendships - time and effort.
I think I need to trade my Sunday morning spinning class for church again - and drop in on a knitting group once in a while - or storytime at the library.
And give up on this mom's group because it's just not doin' it.
Oh baby! If only Seattle and Sacramento were closer together...
I am so sorry to hear about your car -- that plain sucks. And I'm sorry to hear about the wailing harpies that live to criticize and the inspirational author that isn't inspiring. If I could, I would give those ladies a good what-for and make a bonfire to burn that book. Then I'd rent you a really snazzy loaner car and take you out to a fancy vegan dinner.
Save the book so we can set it a blaze next time I'm in town? In the meantime, I love you tons, and I know you'll make it through all this annoyingness with grace.
XOXO, Sarah
I love you.
It's a library book, which is awesome - 'cuz I didn't have to pay to read it.
I'm feeling a lot better by the way. We got a sitter and I got to go out last night and meet a much cooler author, and got 2 phone numbers from women I really like and hope to become friends with. I owe you guys a long post about it after Toby goes to bed tonight - 'cuz it was awesome.
But I wish Seattle were closer too!!!!
Love and miss you!
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